Thursday, August 20, 2009

Vivid Memories & Glimmers of Hope...

Have you noticed you could be going about your day just fine, getting ready for the day, thinking about home school and and who knows what else, when out of no where you are off on a distant thought? How does our brain work like that? This morning was like that for me. Off in my own world contemplating other things, when memories of my mom flood my head. Memories and realities of how much I miss her. Past conversations like, " Mom, why did you let me dress like that?" And her laughing hysterically at me saying, "I don't know!", or "I tried to tell you and you insisted."

Memories of a picture she let me take when I was about 12 years old at K-Mart. It was summer, I was in a sundress, and I wanted my picture take by the K-Mart studio in front of a Christmas fire place scene...How ridiculous!! She just laughed and laughed when I mentioned that. Memories of her so beautiful, and memories of her so weak. Memories, of her saying, "Bring that baby home, she needs parents to love her, just do it!" Memories, memories, memories...

Funny how one minute your are fine, the next in tears (its' prob. all this white board talk). It hasn't been 2 years yet since Mom died, sometimes it feels like a thousand, other times like yesterday. Sometimes I feel like I have been robbed and at other times I feel so blessed!

What I do know is that the cliche of "faded memories" hasn't quite happened for me, and I pray it doesn't. But the cliche that we have "glimmers of hope" stands true. Only it is not just a glimmer, in Jesus Christ. It is bright and shining, like the armor of a valiant Prince, only when we look up, it is the King!

Jesus has given us passion to share the story of His love, with those who have never heard about the Love of Jesus Christ. Can you imagine, all the people around the world who die every day from disease, hunger, and war...Can you imagine that they don't even have a glimmer of hope. They die in their sin, lost with no hope of uniting with a Savior, no hope of uniting with a loved one.

I am so thankful that we have the true hope of Christ, hope and a message that is not meant to be contained. Hope that needs to be SHOUTED to all the nations! Hope that cries out in the face of injustice, Hope that feeds the starving and gives water to the thirsty! Hope that visits prisoners, comforts widows and parents orphans. Hope for the hopeless. Hope that RISKS ALL, for a God that is so worthy!


amyb777 said...

Preach it girl! "Let's risk it all!". I am praying for you this morning my sista.

ypypyp ... kja ;)

Christy. said...

I found your blog recently as we are also adopting from Ethiopia. Your past few posts have been so close to my heart as my mom passed away 6 years ago, when I was 26 years old. The white board story brought tears to my eyes as I could relate so much!

I wish I could say it gets easier but it does get better! I had one little one when my mom passed away and soon I will have four. It is so sad that she is missing out on her grandkids but I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that God had and has a perfect plan!!

My prayers are with you!

Christy. said...

Thanks for responding to my blog comment!

We started the adoption process in December, finished our dossier and have been officially waiting for three months tomorrow! We were made to think our referral would come quickly but so far that's not the case. So, after readjusting our expectations we are praying for a fall/winter referral! We are requesting a boy between 1 and 2 1/2.

I can't wait to follow you in this next adventure that God has called you to!!

LisaShaw said...

Amen! True HOPE that is CHRIST.

While our lives are so different one from another we share the common bond of Christ and I absolutely love your heart for the LORD and your family. We are one in HIM and I'm so glad. Love you and I'm praying for you and your ever growing beautiful family.

caitlyn Day said...

You make my heart cry and sing at the same time when you write things like this. Thank you.

Luv Ya ...

Elissa Hill said...

Man Andrea you have such a heart for this and it just gleans off of you and your family! I'm amazed, and have so much growing to do. Thanks for sharing.

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